A Hyper Achiever's Journey To Feeling Enough - Jourdan Hussein

Alice has lived one of those lives that you would only think happen in movies. Born into a wealthy Chinese-Indonesian family, Alice struggled to connect with her parents and rebelled against their traditional expectations. She pursued a scholarship to Harvard, where she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and developed an interest in Neo Shamanism and alternative healing.In this episode, Alice shares how her involvement with the orgasmic meditation community allowed her to break free from conventional sexual beliefs and decondition herself at a deeper level. She also opens up about her experiences with sugaring which allowed her to challenge cultural norms and explore her own desires. Through her journey and recent experience with psychedelics, Alice has come to believe that mental health issues can be viewed as a superpower rather than a stigma.This candid conversation offers a glimpse into Alice's wild journey of self-discovery and the unconventional path she has taken. Her story is one that will make us rethink a lot of stigma around sexuality, gender and mental illness.—Alice Huang Wijaya a writer, multimedia storyteller, and tech professional with a degree from Harvard, focusing on Neo Shamanism. Her work has been featured in Vice, Rice Media, and The Edge, covering a range of topics from technology, cryptocurrency, gender to sex and underground culture. She recently won a literature award from Singlit Bootcamp in 2020, received a fiction deal from Penguin and currently working on her debut novel, The American Dream.---Follow Alice: https://linktr.ee/projectwonderlandListen to Beyond The Matrix on Spotify or Apple Podcast This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

Damien Masselis is the founder of Pai Seedlings Foundation, author of Manifest of Inner Ecology and expert in soil regeneration. Damien believes in the power of reconnecting with nature as a solution to our socioeconomic and ecological problems, as well as our psycho-spiritual well-being.Damien shares his journey from corporate dissatisfaction to finding joy and purpose through his travels in Asia and close connection with nature and community. He recounts how his path of surrender led him to purchase a barren land in Thailand, and how he transformed it into a thriving permaculture business and community by embracing his passion for environmental education and nature-inspired lifestyles.In this episode, Damien shares his insights on the importance of understanding our connection to nature, the relationship between soil health and human health, and how we are all part of the larger web of life. He challenges us to rethink our consumerist mindset and focus on how we can contribute to the greater good by tapping into our inner nature and working towards our purpose.Connect with Damien: * https://www.seedlings-foundation.org* IG: @pai.seedlings.foundation, @damien.p.masselisFollow Beyond The Matrix: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrix This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

Tom Slater is a truly unique individual whom you can’t put into the box with a wealth of wisdom to share. I had the privilege of participating in a life-changing retreat led by Tom, where I was shown the true potential of our being and the ways in which our identities hold us back from fully experiencing the vastness and beauty of life.Tom shares his personal journey of overcoming addiction, physical abuse, and multiple identities, and how this has led to a deeper understanding and connection with himself, others, and the world around him. We discuss will vs nature, the shadow side of spiritual community, alchemizing pain, letting the universe work through us and gently leaning into our boundaries to access the intelligence within them.This is not about mastering life, but about being mastered by it and allowing it to flow through us. This episode is an inspiration for all of us to explore the depths of ourselves and to fully taste all the beauty life has to offer.—Follow Beyond The Matrix: https://linktr.ee/beyondthematrixLearn about Tom's work: https://dojolife.me/ This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

There is so much more to food than just for gastronomic pleasure or physical sustenance. Evan Rilling, once a personal chef to Will Smith and a now master of healthy farm-to-table cousins, passionately shares the true potential of food in connecting us with our roots, community, and mother nature. Having cooked for multiple retreat centers and built a local food forest in Bali, Evan has witnessed how involving people in the process of growing food can not only be healing but can also be the key for people to truly care about the planet. In this intimate episode, we dive into Evan’s personal journey of overcoming a personal crisis and how it led him to evolve his role beyond just a chef but the builder and healer of connections through food. We discuss how food can be the access point to one’s spiritual journey, the disconnection in the modern industrialized world, and remembering the part of us that used to live, hunt, and cook as a tribe.--Connect with Evan:Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/freestylekitchen/Get Evan's latest cookbook RetrEAT: https://thehealthyhomechef.com/#Follow Beyond The Matrix: Podcast: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrix Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/beyondthematrixshow/ This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

With an MBA from Standford and Oxford, a cofounder of award-winning nonprofit, worked as an AI ethicist, and at the Executive Office of the  President, Jourdan Hussein is the epitome of a hyper achiever Indonesian. Underneath the golden CV, however, were shadows Jourdan was really good at running away from. At his first Ayahuasca ceremony, he was forced to face his inner-wound head-on. This has led him on a deep healing path which got him to finally connect with his body, face his trauma, and eventually quit the rat race. Today, Jourdan is a certified breathwork facilitator and executive coach to post-series A tech CXOs with a mission is to help fellow hyper achievers out there to connect to their core needs: love and belonging.In this episode, Jourdan shared his journey of finally realizing the real needs beyond all the never-ending achievements he pursued: to be loved unconditionally. We discussed the secret and cost of overachieving, the toxic comparison culture, how to become our own parents, and acting from the place of wholeness.--Connect with Jourdan: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jkhuzzein/ Website: https://jkhussein.com/Follow Beyond The Matrix: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrix Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/beyondthematrixshow/  This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

Having suffered from depression since the age of 6, battled with alcoholism, ADHD, and addiction, Jessica almost gave her life up until she discovered spirituality. Meditation, plant medicine, sacred ceremonies, chakra dance, you name it, she's got her hands on everything through her deep healing journey and got lost many times in between. Through immense pain, she learned to break away from societal expectations and feel whole from within through an integrated spiritual life. She now combined what she's learned with her upbringing in Singapore to bridge the spiritual and material world. She's made her mission to help spiritually gifted and sensitive women, to bring their gifts into manifestationWe discuss the beauty of sacred ceremonies in reminding us of what we've lost in modern society, how spirituality can be a new addiction and escapism, the power of community in walking each other home, and surrendering to deep pain in order to birth deep joy.What we covered: 2:08 Depression at the age of 6 7:30 When pain outweighs the fear of change 14:29 Recovery and surrendering control 17:04 The journey into plant medicine 22:49 The power of community and feeling seen 26:44 The sacred beauty of ceremonies 36:37 Proving to feel worthy 40:36 Spirituality as the new addiction 48:37 Deep pain and deep joy 53:00 Soul-led movement and businesses 1:01:03 Key takeawaysConnect with Jessica Haris:  Instagram: https://instagram.com/jessicaharris.love Website: www.jessicaharris.loveFollow Beyond The Matrix:  Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/beyondthematrixshow/   Youtube: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrix Telegram: https://t.me/beyondthematrixshow This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

If you ever think you're late to make a change in your life, Jeroen's story will prove you wrong. Having climbed to the top of the corporate ladders and led a multimillion-dollar business, Jeroen Van Overbeek decided to leave it all behind at 40 in pursuit of a greater purpose. He now runs Social Impakt, a social enterprise in Indonesia with the mission to improve access to clean drinking water in local communities. To date, he has raised $300K and donated over 11,000 water filters to the struggling locals during the Earthquake in Lombok and Covid crisis.We discuss how he came home to his heart, the doubt-filled transition process, the world of social enterprise, and why clean water access can literally change the lives of the people at the bottom of the pyramid:2:28 What inspired Jeroen to do what he's doing10:19 Abundance is not a destination14:53 The transition process21:00 Why clean water access changes lives30:00 The magic behind the portable water filters35:23 Pure intention as a competitive edge40:20 Balancing impact and revenue52:32 Comparison and trusting our own path58:11 Empathy can be cultivated1:01:00 Key takeaways — Connect with Jeroen: https://www.instagram.com/socialimpakt/Website: www.social-impakt.comDonate the Jeroen's fundraiser for the water filters: https://donorbox.org/clean-water-for-baliFollow Beyond The Matrix:  Youtube: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrix Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/beyondthematrixshow/   Telegram: https://t.me/beyondthematrixshow This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

Ever wonder what it feels like living in the wrong body your whole life? Jean shares a candid story on the journey to her freedom as a trans woman, challenging the rules of society and why she's so driven to fight for visibility for the trans community. We discuss the different layers of the matrix that exists in the society - how a seemingly accepted identity is still based on certain standards imposed on us, and dive into the fluidity of gender identity, sexual orientation, and gender expression. Jean was forced to live in the gender matrix her whole life and eventually defied the pressure to shine in her full color. Her story is definitely one that inspires us to question the narratives prescribed to us so we can be our own author and write our story.Jean is the APAC lead of the Trans@Google Global Steering Committee, the founder of Trans.Lucent - a community support group for Indonesian trans-folks, and a moderator of 2 international trans communities. She's a full-time Growth Manager at Google for mobile app publishers in Southeast Asia and a part-time mermaid, gamer, and cosplayer.What we discussed: 3:06 How Jean is advocating for trans rights at Google 6:59 Importance of representationImportance of representations Trans people always portrayed in negative light 12:34 Coming out to her mom and the privilege of developing independence 22:19 Love trumps what people think of us 28:23 Living in fear before the transition 37:02 The courage to fight for freedom 41:47 Gender identity, sexual orientation and gender expression 44:36 Compassion over comprehension 50:17 Happiness and life after transition 53:48 the small thing that means the world 1:00:00 F*ck society and takeaways—Connect with Jean: https://www.instagram.com/jean.illyria/Follow Beyond The Matrix:Youtube: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrixInstagram: https://www.instagram.com/beyondthematrixshow/ Telegram: https://t.me/beyondthematrixshow This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

If you're looking to feel more whole and hopeful at the current time of despair, Frances Tse's story will certainly fill you up with warmth and help you reconnect with your humanity. For my birthday this year, I'm fundraising for Feed Bali and I'm honored to get to speak with the co-founder Frances to learn about the story behind their beautiful mission in feeding thousands of families hit hardest by the economic crisis in Bali. Frances is also Bali's first foreign priestess and she shares the fascinating, inexorable signs from the universe to take on this holy path. We discussed listening to your own voice against the social norms, the key to real happiness, and surrendering to the divine plan.Donate to my 28th Birthday Fundraiser for Feed Bali: https://www.mightycause.com/story/Edrics28thFrances Tse is a Canadian entrepreneur reborn as a Balinese Priestess. Having worked in Hong Kong, San Fransico, Tokyo, and Toronto as a media sales executive, she decided to leave the material world when she met her now Balinese husband in Bali 21 years ago and took her first fateful step to become the first foreign temple priestess outside of Bali. Together with her husband, they own a travel & wedding company and a cooking school. When Covid hit they pivoted their business to create Feed Bali which has fed 4,555 families - 547,456 meals. This year, she is publishing her first book in the series: Trestna, Gate of Love, Memories of a Balinese Priestess.What we discussed:2:48 The genesis of Feed Bali9:43 Giving hope beyond food and connecting to our humanity15:37 What keeps Frances going and key to happiness21:33 Anyone can be a hero25:00 How Frances developed the depth of her compassion29:09 Getting lost in the corporate world31:40 Frances' path to be a holy person43:55 Surrendering to the divine plan48:04 The resilience of Balinese families and listening to the "voice"57:09 Why society gets success all wrong1:03:00 Key takeaways and summary-- Follow Frances here: Feed Bali's website: https://www.feedbali.com/ Feed Bali's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/feed_bali/?hl=en Frances' Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/francestseardika/?hl=enFollow Beyond The Matrix: Youtube & Podcast: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrix Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/beyondthematrixshow/ Telegram: https://t.me/beyondthematrixshowDonate to my 28th Birthday Fundraiser for Feed Bali: https://www.mightycause.com/story/Edrics28th This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com

If you are stuck in a fixed narrative of who you are and what you can't do, Asha, as his name suggests, will inspire you with the hope that any change is possible. Asha was a drug addict and dealer with ADHD for 10 years before he made an extreme remodeling of his identity in a week. He changed his environment, started working for charity, stayed in Osho Centre in India for 3 months and now established a new life purpose, dedicating his life to mindfulness and coaching people on self-love. In this episode, we discuss breaking old identity, recognition vs validation and how self-love is the bedrock to any self-development work we do. Dive into the inner experience of someone with ADHD and substance abuse disorder, and develop the compassion and wisdom for the suffering underneath the surface.—Asha is an intelligent businessman and adrenaline junkie who won a writing award at 18, started his own clothing brand, cycled 5,000 km across South America. His unfortunate journey to substance abuse led him to get kicked out of one of the best schools in Brussel and going into a dark path. After 10 years of abuse, as he likes to put it, he "flipped like a pancake". He left behind all that was possessing him, did self-hypnotherapy and healed his trauma. Today he is coaching people on mindfulness, self-love, and making big positive changes in life.What we discuss:3:48 The power of naming our identity8:05: How Asha started abusing drugs12:32 What ADHD feels like14:37 Breaking 10 years of identity as a drug addict22:00 Change is within reach26:32 Validation vs recognition31:12 Flipping like a pancake with one week of isolation38:10 Positive addiction and new neural highways45:44 Seek something bigger than yourself51:19 The calling to Osho centre and becoming a coach01:00:05 Self love as the bedrock to any transformationsFollow Asha here: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ashaslifestyle/ Facebook: https://web.facebook.com/AshaCoach Website: https://www.ashacoaching.net/Follow Beyond The Matrix: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/beyondthematrixshow/ Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ehzr7PkOIh0&t=1375s Telegram: https://t.me/beyondthematrixshow This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit edricsubur.substack.com