#180 From Shame to Grace: Michael Radut's Journey of Identity, Love, and Faith

Join us as we explore Brandon's incredible story, beginning from his early days in rural northwest Missouri. We uncover the duality of his childhood, marked by both outdoor adventures and the dark shadow of his father's anger and substance use. Despite these challenges, Brandon held a deep commitment to his family and strived to be a better man for his wife, Malia, and their children, showcasing the transformative power of faith and resilience.Brandon's adolescence is a rollercoaster of rebellion, love, and the search for identity. Transitioning to public school opened up new worlds of freedom and street racing, while a father-son car project brought unexpected bonding. We follow his journey through high school friendships, and personal struggles, and delve into his spiritual encounters that shaped his path. From battling substance abuse to experiencing a profound spiritual awakening, and facing the chaos of relationships and parenting challenges, Brandon’s journey is nothing short of inspiring. Listen in as we explore his path to reconciliation with his wife, his transformative encounters with faith, and the profound realizations that led to a life marked by spiritual freedom and grace. Through Brandon’s heartfelt testimony, discover the profound impact of understanding God’s unconditional love and its power to heal and transform lives.Chapters:14:32 - Journey Through Adolescence and Love29:21 - Search for Purpose and Healing37:33 - Faith, Addiction, and Redemption49:37 - Struggles, Loss, and New Beginnings1:02:21 - Chaos and Struggle in Relationships1:12:09 - The Path to Reconciliation1:21:40 - Finding Freedom and Facing Challenges1:35:48 - Parenting Through Challenges and Listening1:46:16 - Living in Freedom and Grace1:50:52 - Discovering the Power of Love💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give📷 FOLLOW us on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riyoung31/📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

What happens when life throws you into a whirlwind of broken family ties, substance abuse, and rebellious teenage years? Join us as Jennifer Oliver shares her poignant journey from a chaotic childhood in Raytown, Kansas City, to a life of faith and resilience. This episode explores the profound impact of her parents' divorce, the normalization of alcohol in her family, and the subsequent struggles that shaped her formative years. Jennifer's raw and honest recounting of these early experiences sets the stage for a powerful narrative of survival and transformation.Throughout this episode, Jennifer candidly discusses her years of teenage rebellion, substance abuse, and the hardships of navigating college without a clear direction. She bravely opens up about her mental health struggles, unplanned pregnancies, and the heart-wrenching decisions she faced along the way. We follow her through the darkest moments of her life, including homelessness, betrayal, and the challenges of the family drug court system. Despite the chaos, Jennifer's story is one of unwavering resilience and the search for true fulfillment beyond temporary pleasures.Witness the transformative power of grace as Jennifer details her path from turmoil to redemption. From attending a Christian marriage conference that mended her relationship with her husband to finding strength and solace in the gospel, her journey underscores the importance of spiritual growth and forgiveness. This episode is a testament to the life-changing power of faith, showcasing how love and forgiveness can help overcome life's most challenging moments. Tune in to be inspired by Jennifer's remarkable story of hope and renewal.Chapters0:00 - From Death to Life6:50 - Life of Rebellion and Struggle16:35 - Journey of Struggles and Redemption30:58 - Struggles of Loss and Redemption47:59 - From Turmoil to Marriage1:03:07 - Marriage Struggles and Redemption1:16:36 - Journey of Transformation and Redemption1:24:26 - Family Struggles and Separation1:32:39 - Restoration Through Trials and Faith💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

Have you ever felt trapped by the crushing weight of legalism, yearning for the liberating embrace of grace? This episode chronicles Enoch's profound journey from a regimented upbringing in New York, shrouded in strict religious rules, to discovering the boundless freedom of the gospel. Enoch opens up about the intense pressures of forced obedience and the transformative power of genuine, love-filled faith that redefined his relationship with God and others.Enoch also shares the deeply personal impact of being diagnosed with ADD in childhood, a label that cast a long shadow over his self-esteem and worldview. You'll hear poignant stories of isolation, the search for solace in intellectual pursuits, and the emotional scars left by his mother's reactions. Through this narrative, we uncover the struggles of an intellectually advanced child navigating a conventional school system, the comfort found in his bond with his father, and the gradual journey towards emotional and spiritual healing.In a candid and raw discussion, we explore Enoch's battles with mental health, extreme legalism, and the eventual breaking point that led to surrender and healing through faith. Discover how a family's enduring process of reconciliation, the influence of scripture, and the importance of balancing logic with heart-driven desires can lead to a richer, more joyful Christian life. As Enoch steps into the light of grace, this episode underscores the transformative message of the gospel and the imperative to share its freedom and blessings with others.Chapters:0:00 - Journey From Legalism to Grace12:53Overcoming Trauma, Growing Spiritually and Intellectually28:27 - Discovering Balance Between Logic and Heart33:36 - Healing From Mental Health Challenges42:32 - A Journey Through Pain and Liberation56:23 - Promoting the Message of Freedom1:11:24 - Breaking Free From Legalism and Fear1:25:29 - Prayer and Invitation to Bible Study💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📷 FOLLOW us on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riyoung31/📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

 From battling anxiety and seeking validation to navigating the complexities of romantic relationships and marriage, Kaylee's candid story will resonate deeply with anyone on a path to spiritual growth. Her father's strong spiritual beliefs and her tumultuous experiences in young love set the stage for a transformative journey marked by both struggle and redemption.Kaylee's recounting of her early romantic relationships and the purity culture challenges will shed light on the emotional turmoil and guilt that many young people face. She bravely shares her efforts to maintain physical boundaries and stay true to her values amidst the powerful influence of shame. You'll hear about the intense conversations with her parents and husband, along with the self-imposed accountability measures that helped her navigate these struggles. The episode also delves into the unique pressures of young love intertwined with deep spiritual convictions, revealing the path toward a committed and faith-filled partnership.In this heartfelt episode, Kaylee also opens up about overcoming bitterness and resentment in her marriage, especially during the COVID-19 pandemic. You'll learn about the concept of giving 100% in a relationship and viewing marriage as a path to holiness rather than happiness. Her journey from new age beliefs to embracing Christian faith is an inspiring transformation that showcases the power of God's unconditional love. Finally, Kaylee reflects on discovering her self-worth through faith, finding peace and harmony in her life, and the supportive community that helped her along the way. Join us for a moving conversation that explores the depths of faith, love, and personal growth.Chapters:11:44 - Romantic Relationships and High Standards23:22 - Navigating Boundaries in Romantic Relationships32:55 - Navigating Early Marital Challenges48:31 - Journey to Spiritual Transformation1:00:19 - Exploring Faith and Spiritual Transformation1:04:27 - Discovering Faith Through Life Changes1:11:29 - Discovering Worthiness Through God's Love"1:23:12 - Rediscovering Worthiness Through God's Love💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📷 FOLLOW us on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riyoung31/📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

What happens when the pursuit of acceptance and the struggle with identity meet the transformative power of faith? Michael Redut takes us on an emotional journey that begins in his devout Adventist upbringing in Loma Linda, California, where he faced both cultural and personal challenges. Together with his wife Bianca, Michael opens up about the trials they've faced in their marriage, offering a heartfelt perspective on love, faith, and the impact of community.Middle school can be tough, but imagine dealing with an identity crisis, ADHD, and societal expectations all at once. Michael candidly shares his experiences, from fabricating stories to fit in, to the shame and isolation that came with his search for self-worth. His humorous anecdotes and raw honesty provide a deep look into the complexities of adolescence and the coping mechanisms that often lead to destructive patterns.From an emotional rollercoaster of young love to the profound realization of grace through faith, this episode captures pivotal moments in Michael's life. A transformative trip to Spokane becomes a turning point, bringing about confessions and a renewed understanding of identity through the gospel. With powerful insights into the importance of vulnerability and the life-changing impact of sharing one's story, this discussion promises to resonate and inspire anyone on their own journey of transformation. Join us for an episode that is both moving and uplifting.Chapters:0:00 - Stories of Transformation and Freedom6:14 - Identity Crisis in Middle School15:55 - Struggle With Self-Acceptance and Shame23:09 - Struggling With Online Affirmation and Shame33:10 - Desperate Search for Love and Acceptance47:14 - Navigating Relationship Struggles and Anxiety58:47 - Finding Freedom Through the Gospel1:08:39 - Unexpected Revelation and Redemption1:13:08 - Discovering Identity and Grace Through Confession💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📷 FOLLOW us on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riyoung31/📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

Ginger’s awe-inspiring tale of faith and resilience is nothing short of miraculous. Raised in a Seventh-day Adventist family and traveling from Singapore to Massachusetts, Kentucky, and Virginia, Ginger navigated the complexities of a life filled with contrasts. She opens up about her family’s public religious persona versus their private dynamics, her early struggles with mental health, and the pivotal moments that shaped her spirituality. From a reluctant baptism to a genuine spiritual awakening in high school, Ginger's journey through depression and her search for psychological support are shared with raw honesty.Ginger's career path took many turns, including a move to Oahu for graduate school and specializing in speech language pathology. She narrates the pressures she faced from her family, the trials of online dating, and the liberating choice to live authentically. Her battles with undiagnosed ADD and bipolar disorder highlight the crucial role of accurate medical diagnosis and the transformative impact of proper treatment. The episode underscores the importance of mental health support and the strength she found through unwavering faith.Perhaps the most compelling part of Ginger’s story is her testament to the power of faith amidst adversity. Facing wrongful accusations and incarceration, Ginger relied on divine intervention and prayer for solace and guidance. Her release and eventual relocation to Wyoming are filled with profound personal growth and miracles. From applying for disability benefits to dealing with seasonal mania, Ginger's narrative is a powerful reminder of the strength found in God’s love, the importance of community, and the healing power of embracing one’s spiritual identity. Join us for an episode brimming with hope, healing, and the palpable presence of faith.0:00 - Transformation Through Faith Testimonies15:12 - Career Change and Family Pressures23:43 - Navigating Mental Health Challenges42:30 - Miraculous Journey of Faith49:05 - Navigating Disability Benefits and Faith1:02:50 - Seasonal Mania and God's Protection1:07:31 - Healing Through Faith Conversations1:25:44 - Rediscovering Faith Through Testimonies💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📷 FOLLOW us on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riyoung31/📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

Join us on this enlightening episode of the Death to Life podcast as we feature Grant, a long-time community member. Raised in Missouri's Seventh-day Adventist tradition, Grant's journey of faith took a dramatic turn when he moved to Lincoln to be with his now-wife, Sarah. Through his story, we explore how his understanding of God shifted from a distant, academic figure to an ever-present, intimate companion.Throughout this episode, we discuss the complexities of spiritual skepticism and the hurdles faced when accepting new religious doctrines. Grant shares his unexpected encounters and reconnections with people like Eddie and Jayla, which helped him navigate his doubts and deepen his faith. Personal stories reveal the discomfort and skepticism that arise when new theological ideas challenge our long-held beliefs. These candid reflections shed light on how grappling with personal struggles and unmet spiritual expectations can amplify one's discomfort in religious discussions. This episode underscores the transformative power of genuine faith and God's grace, leading to a liberated and more confident life. Join us and discover how you too can experience this transformation by participating in our "Death to Life Bible Study" sessions every Monday night. Text DEATHTOLIFE to 808-204-4372 to embark on this life-changing journey with us.Chapters:0:00 - Transformation Through the Gospel16:19 - Journey of Spiritual Discovery31:25 - Free From Shame and Condemnation39:02 - Journey to Confidence and Assurance💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📷 FOLLOW us on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riyoung31/📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

Beez and Caryn courageously share their journey from the depths of a sexless marriage to discovering their true worth and identity through the love of Jesus Christ. Their heartfelt stories and experiences provide a beacon of hope and encouragement, shedding light on how understanding God's love can dismantle feelings of inadequacy. Join us as we revisit their transformative journey and explore the profound impact of embracing your identity as a cherished child of God.Bernard opens up about a traumatic childhood experience of sexual abuse over the phone and its lasting effects on his physical intimacy with Caryn. Through the rawness of his prayers and the healing journey through EMDR therapy, we delve into the powerful intersection of faith, therapy, and personal growth. Bernard's story highlights the breakthroughs achieved and the inner conflict between faith and trauma, offering listeners a deeper understanding of the healing process and the role of divine intervention.From unexpected pregnancies to dealing with miscarriage and personal losses, this episode is a testament to resilience and the transformative power of faith. Bernard and Karen's journey through adversity, supported by their church community and friends, showcases the importance of trusting God's provision and timing. We also invite you to join our Wednesday morning Bible study group, where we dive deep into the book of Romans, fostering a sense of community and shared learning. Tune in for an inspiring episode filled with hope, healing, and the enduring impact of the gospel.0:00 - From Death to Life9:36 - Healing Journey Through EMDR Therapy18:43 - Transformation Through Healing and Faith27:53 - Journey Through Healing and Restoration34:34 - Navigating Spiritual Growth Through Adversity47:06 - Trusting God Through Life's Challenges52:44 - Embracing the Parenthood Journey With Faith1:01:12 - Journey Through Pregnancy Loss1:06:19 - Hope and Healing Through Trials💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📷 FOLLOW us on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riyoung31/📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

Have you ever wondered how a single Bible verse could completely change your life? Join us on this special bonus episode of the Death to Life podcast, recorded in Nebraska, where we celebrate the transformative power of scripture. Our journey begins with Justin Khoe who shares how Romans 6:6 set him free from the shackles of sin, leading to a profound spiritual awakening. As we continue, various guests, including Jose and Eliana, offer heartfelt testimonies of how specific biblical passages guided them through personal trials and led them to a deeper understanding of their worth in Christ.Explore the richness of God's love through scriptures like Matthew 13:44-45, where we reveal how viewing ourselves as the precious pearls Christ sacrificed everything for can revolutionize our self-worth and everyday actions. Rich delves into the flesh versus spirit debate using Galatians 5:18 and Romans 8:10, shifting from a dualistic view of human nature to embracing our true identity in Christ. The discussion encourages us to live as new creations, free from the limitations of the carnal mind, and to understand the divine transformation that comes with this perspective.As we wrap up, Caitlin and Brian B. share their personal stories of finding peace and contentment through verses like Psalm 23:1, emphasizing a shift from a mindset of lack to one of abundance. Ruth’s experience with Hosea 2 highlights the power of God’s justice and love, providing comfort and assurance. Finally, we invite you to join Internet Church, an online community designed for authentic spiritual growth and fellowship. Get ready for an episode filled with powerful stories, deep theological insights, and an invitation to a supportive online faith community.💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📷 FOLLOW us on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/riyoung31/📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles

What happens when your perception of God is shaped by fear and guilt? Floyd Phillips shares his deeply personal journey of growing up in a religious environment that painted God as hypercritical and demanding. This skewed image led him to an obsessive quest for forgiveness, confessing every sin to escape eternal damnation. Learn how this relentless pursuit affected his mental state and spiritual growth, and the pivotal moment on his 16th birthday that sparked a profound internal debate, leading to a surprising sense of freedom and a turning point in his faith journey.Floyd's story takes a transformative turn through the power of inductive Bible study. Moving away from rigid religious teachings, he discovered a more loving and forgiving image of God, which brought significant changes to his life and family dynamics. Hear how giving up family worship was a difficult yet necessary decision to prevent passing on a dark view of God to the next generation. This new approach to Bible study emphasizes personal discovery and direct engagement with scripture, fostering a profound and personal understanding of God's love.Experience the impact of community engagement and emotional awakening through Floyd's eyes. From Zoom calls that deepened his faith to intimate, faith-based meetings that fostered deep connections and emotional release, Floyd's journey underscores the importance of authenticity and vulnerability in our spiritual walks. This episode promises to inspire, resonate, and challenge long-held beliefs, encouraging a deeper, Holy Spirit-led engagement with scripture. Tune in to gain insights and be part of a story that emphasizes the transformative power of the gospel and the importance of a supportive community.0:00 - Journey From Fear to Freedom14:30 - From Religious Guilt to Grace24:54 - Transformation Through Inductive Bible Study37:43 - Personal Bible Study Transforming Lives47:13 - The Gospel's Transformative Power1:01:28 - Transformation Through Intensive Learning1:12:17 - Deepening Faith Through Community Engagement1:18:24 - Emotional Awakening and Spiritual Growth1:33:40 - Podcast Blessings and Recommendations💰 DONATE & SUPPORT our Ministry: lovereality.org/give👍 LIKE us on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/alovereality📚 LEARN more at our site: lovereality.orgContinue growing with friends! Join a circle over at www.lovereality.org/circles