How I Thought Myself Sane

“I’m the Spell, the Signal, and the Sound.”You made it here. That matters.These poems are not meant to guide you.They’re meant to confirm what you already know but might have forgotten:Your sanity is not their system.Your mind was never the problem.You are not the glitch—you are the code.Say it with me:I am not broken. I was programmed.If this collection has resonated with you and you feel like you need help embarking on your own journey to remembering, check out The Reignbow unSchool for unique Virtual unLearning Experiences or to download my ebook The Reignbow Code: Transforming Pain Into Power.You can also click here to access all of the completed parts.And if you’re really bout it— schedule your private Reignbow Realignment Session. Even if I never hear from you, I pray something resonated here for you. I love you!Peace. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

Poems of Alchemy, Alignment, and Reality CreationCodes: mental alchemy, perception, liberation, creationTone: poetic precision, cosmic clarity, anchored truthPoem Titles:* I Dream in Codes Now* The Mind Was Never the Enemy* She Gave Up Explaining* I Speak in ReflectionsThe Code Recalled is the return. Not to a former self—but to the architect within.The poems in this section speak from the frequency of truth remembered and reclaimed.This is The Reignbow Code in motion—woven through language, memory, and mind.These words are not performances. They are instructions. Echoes of a blueprint I didn’t know I was carrying.Where the Words Became RealityThere’s a quiet power that comes from alignment. Not the kind you shout from rooftops, but the kind that shifts reality without saying a word.These poems were written in that space.Where thought, spirit, and perception finally moved in harmony.By Part IV, I wasn’t searching for sanity—I was living it.Not as a destination, but as a frequency. A decision. A birthright.This isn’t the end of the story. It’s the point where remembering becomes embodiment.Where the code doesn’t just echo through the mind—it becomes the lens I live by.I didn’t arrive here by being fixed.I arrived here by being reclaimed.If you’re still with me—hay, girl hay!These words are proof that if anything is possible; everything is possible.I have one more bonus part for you, but there’s no rush. Let this one echo as long as it needs to.You can also click here to access all of the completed parts.If it resonates, feel free to leave a reflection below or share this with someone else striving to remember. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

Poems of Reconnection, Inner Voice, and Self-TrustCodes: vibration, memory, intuitive knowing, reclaimingTone: rhythmic, confident, unapologeticPoem Titles:* Mirror, Mirror, I’m the Spell* She Asked Me Who I Was Without the Noise* My Mind is a Tuning Fork* I Remembered on PurposeResonance Rising is where everything started to sound like me again.The voices quieted. The signal got stronger. These poems carry the pulse of truth, the rhythm of return.By this point, I wasn’t begging to be saved—I was remembering how to listen. And that changed everything.These are the echoes of my own voice rising to meet me.The Frequency of Coming HomeThis is when I started to trust my voice again. Not just hear it—trust it.There’s a rhythm in truth that the body recognizes before the mind catches up. These poems carry that rhythm.Part III is the resonance of return.Not to perfection, but to self. To sovereignty.To the memory that I had always been the one I was waiting for.These words are louder, clearer, and rooted in something real.They don’t ask for permission. They just are.The voice in my head stopped whispering warnings and started offering wisdom.And for the first time, I listened without flinching.If you’re still with me—we are almost there.These words are a reminder that there is always hope, you just have to know what to do with it.Part IV— the final installment of this collection — will arrive soon, but there’s no rush. Let this one echo as long as it needs to.You can also click here to access all of the completed parts.If it resonates, feel free to leave a reflection below or share this with someone else navigating the edge. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

Poems of Awareness, Resistance, and Glimmers of TruthCodes: pattern recognition, resistance, questioning, reflectionTone: contemplative, frustrated, flickering lightPoem Titles:* The First Time I Heard My Own Voice* I Saw Myself in Someone Else’s Lie* This Program is Bugged* Thinking in Morse CodeReflections in the Dark is where awareness begins to flicker. Where confusion gives way to clarity—but not without resistance. These poems live in that in-between space: you’re waking up, but you’re still tangled in the web.Here is where I began to question everything, especially myself. And in the questioning… I heard something real.These are the reflections I saw when I stopped running from the dark.When the Mirror Started Talking BackI used to think resistance meant I was doing something wrong.Now I know it’s one of the first signs of remembering.These poems were born in the tension between doubt and awakening. I started noticing patterns—not just in the world around me, but in my own thoughts. Thoughts that didn’t sound like me, didn’t feel like me, but had been narrating my life for years.Part II lives in that flicker. That first spark.It’s frustrated, flickering, and not yet free—but the shift has begun.These words aren’t polished revelations. They’re the voice I’d buried, cracking through the surface.It’s the moment I stopped performing confusion and started asking the right questions.It’s when the mirror stopped reflecting what I was told—and started showing me who I actually was.If you’re still with me—peace, beloved.These words simply want you to remember the light. It still shines, you just have to believe in it.Part III will arrive soon, but there’s no rush. Let this one echo as long as it needs to.You can also click here to access all of the completed parts.If it resonates, feel free to leave a reflection below or share this with someone else navigating the edge. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

Poems of Dissociation, Confusion, and SurvivalCodes: fear, distortion, forgetting, programmingTone: honest, vulnerable, hauntingPoem Titles:* The Noise in My Head Wasn’t Mine* Diagnosed by Ghosts* I Said I Was Fine* How to Outrun a MemoryEchoes of the Edge is the beginning of a layered journey—a poetic record of what it means to lose your grip on what’s real, only to find a deeper truth beneath the chaos. Each part stands on its own, but together they trace the arc of remembering myself.Part I is where the distortion lives.These are poems from the edge—where the programming is loud, the memories are blurry, and the performance of being “fine” begins to crack.Before you read the poems, I invite you into the space they came from.A Quiet Witness to MadnessI didn’t write these poems to be understood.I wrote them because I was drowning.This is a time capsule from the season when my thoughts didn’t feel like my own—when I couldn’t tell the difference between who I was and what I had been programmed to believe. It’s raw. Disjointed. Honest in a way that only pain can be.These are the poems that came through when I had nothing left but the noise in my head and the quiet whisper of something that still wanted to live.If they feel chaotic, it’s because I was.If they feel haunted, it’s because I was.If they feel like fragments, it’s because I didn’t know I was allowed to be whole.I share them now not as a map, but as a mirror—for anyone who has ever felt trapped in their own mind, unsure if they’d make it out. This is my witness:That even in distortion, a deeper truth is always trying to break through.If you’re still with me—thank you.These words are tender evidence of a time when I wasn’t sure healing was possible.Part II will arrive soon, but there’s no rush. Let this one echo as long as it needs to.If it resonates, feel free to leave a reflection below or share this with someone else navigating the edge.You can also click here to access all of the completed parts. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

Everything about this collection is alive—my voice, my vision, my vibration.I didn’t just write How I Thought Myself Sane—I birthed it. I became the living, breathing frequency of what happens when truth, softness, power, and remembrance meet in one body and decide to speak.This piece, this peace, is going to be a homecoming for anyone who’s ever even imagined liberation.Anyone who’s tasted it and thought, “Can I really live here?”This collection says: Yes. You can. And you already do. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

There’s something profound about the way life speaks when we’re listening. Sometimes, the messages are gentle whispers. Other times, they come as a skunk chasing you under the night sky.This week’s Resonance & Reflection intuitive message led me to an unexpected revelation about transmutation, not just as an abstract spiritual concept but as a deeply embodied process. This insight didn’t come from books or theories—it came from a moment of presence, of fear, and ultimately, of harmony.I shared the full experience on my Patreon, but here, I want to offer an expanded reflection on a key theme: how acknowledgment shifts energy, both internally and externally.The Grass Called Me OutAfter my run-in with the skunk, I returned to nature to ground myself. I greeted the trees, reconnecting with them like old friends, when suddenly, I felt the grass respond:“You act like we weren’t even here.”Not in a hostile way, but in a tone of remembrance—a nudge that said, we’ve always been here, too.And in that moment, I felt it. A familiar energy, one I’ve encountered before in different forms. It was love, but also a longing to be acknowledged. It was proof that “God” is indeed “jealous,” but not in the way we’ve been conditioned to fear.The grass didn’t need my worship. It didn’t demand submission. It simply wanted to be seen. And when I acknowledged it, it acknowledged me right back—with a revelation that reminded me of one of my favorite lines from The Color Purple:“I think it pisses God off if you walk by the color purple in a field somewhere and don’t notice it.”How often do we overlook what’s already been given to us?How often do we bypass the gifts that have been placed right in front of us, waiting for us to see?Transmutation Is Not Changing—It’s BalancingAs I processed this moment, I realized something: transmutation is not about turning fear into something else. It’s about creating a harmonic flow within yourself so that fear no longer disrupts your equilibrium.We’ve been taught that transmutation is about changing emotions—turning fear into love, turning anger into peace. But what if it’s actually about balancing those energies so they can move fluidly through us instead of controlling us?During the message, I actively experienced this shift in real-time. I noticed judgment creeping in—judgment toward myself, judgment toward the situation. But instead of trying to suppress it, I moved it into curiosity.At around 9:30 into the message, I could feel the difference. I wasn’t just accepting the experience—I was at peace with it.This is what authentic power feels like.Authentic Power & the Processing Mind“It’s not ‘overthinking’ if you’re processing. Your brain is a computer. It needs to process.”So many of us have been conditioned to believe that deep thinking is a flaw. That analyzing, questioning, and reflecting too much is a burden. But what if this is part of our natural intelligence? What if our minds are designed to process like a computer—gathering information, running programs, and refining them until we create something intentional?This ties into authentic power, a concept I first encountered in Universal Human by Gary Zukav. He actually has a book titled Authentic Power, but I never read that one.Still, the essence of the idea resonates: authentic power is not about controlling others or even controlling emotions. It’s about aligning your inner world in a way that allows you to move through life with clarity, purpose, and peace.And sometimes, that clarity comes from the most unexpected messengers—like a skunk reminding you that fear is a frequency you can harmonize with, or a patch of grass reminding you that presence is an act of love.Want More? Join Me on PatreonIf this resonated with you, I invite you to dive deeper with me on Patreon.Every week, I release a Resonance & Reflection Intuitive Message, where I explore themes like these in real-time. For my members, I’ll be posting a bonus expansion on this message, where I go even deeper into:✅ How to recognize when you’re in judgment vs. curiosity✅ A deeper breakdown of transmutation in real-time✅ The connection between harmonic flow and self-trustYou can join at this link for access. ✨And if you’re already a member—thank you for walking this path with me. I can’t wait to hear your reflections.Reignbow RealismWhat if everything in your life—every experience, every fear, every overlooked detail—was simply waiting to be acknowledged?What if the only thing missing was your presence?I’d love to hear your thoughts in the comments. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

At the core of generational trauma is the mother, the nucleus of the family structure. Everything within the family dynamic is an extension of her experience, whether consciously or unconsciously. Identifying this cycle is not about blame—it’s about understanding, forgiving, healing and building sustainable connections with the people you love.Have a seat. Grab a cup of coffee or a snack— and let the next 10 minutes change your life. The Reignbow Code™ is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a free or paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

About This MeditationEmbracing the Flame is a guided meditation designed to help you transform discomfort into growth. Rather than resisting challenges, this practice invites you to approach them with courage, curiosity, and compassion.Through breathwork, affirmations, and visualization, you’ll learn to lean into discomfort— allowing its transformative energy to empower you. Whether you’re navigating uncertainty, fear, or change, this meditation provides a grounding tool to help you release resistance, build trust, and reconnect with your inner strength.Why No Music?This meditation is intentionally designed without music to help you focus fully on the guidance and the power of your own visualization. The silence creates space for your energy to harmonize naturally, free of external influence. Many meditators have requested this format, and I’ve found it to be especially effective for cultivating a deeper, more personal connection to the practice.Why It WorksDiscomfort is often a signal that growth is unfolding, yet it can feel overwhelming when faced without intention. This meditation helps reframe discomfort as a catalyst for transformation, offering a gentle yet powerful reminder that growth doesn’t come from avoiding challenges but from embracing them.Take a few moments to settle in, and let the flame guide you toward deeper trust, clarity, and peace.Thanks for reading The Reignbow unSchool! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com

Have you been feeling drained, ungrounded, or disconnected? In a fast-paced world, it’s easy for our energy to feel scattered. That’s why I created this guided meditation — a powerful practice to clear, align, and protect your energy centers so you can move through the day with clarity and intention.The Inspiration Behind This MeditationAs someone deeply attuned to energy and transformation, I’ve often sought ways to maintain balance, clarity, and protection in a world that can feel overwhelming. Over the years, my journey has led me through profound healing experiences, including shadow work, ancestral healing, and energy alignment practices. Each step brought me closer to a sense of wholeness and peace.This meditation emerged during a morning practice when I felt guided to combine visualization with breathwork. Inspired by the imagery of roses unfolding and the cosmic energies of the planets, I created this practice as a way to align my energy centers, transmute discomfort into empowerment, and start the day fully grounded. It was so effective that I knew I had to share it with others.Whether you’re navigating transformation or simply looking for a way to reset and protect your energy, this meditation can be a powerful tool.What to ExpectIn this meditation, you’ll visualize each energy center opening like a rose, radiating its color outward to create a vibrant, layered aura. With each breath, the rose transforms into a planetary energy, deepening your connection to cosmic wisdom and grounding you in a protected state.By the end, you’ll feel clear, aligned, and wrapped in a protective field of energy, ready to take on the day with intention and ease.Why No Music?This meditation is intentionally designed without music to help you focus fully on the guidance and the power of your own visualization. The silence creates space for your energy to harmonize naturally, free of external influence. Many meditators have requested this format, and I’ve found it to be especially effective for cultivating a deeper, more personal connection to the practice.How to Use This Meditation* Do it first thing in the morning to set your energy for the day.* Use it as a stand-alone practice or pair it with other meditations for deeper healing.* Practice regularly to strengthen and maintain a healthy, balanced aura.FAQ1. Do I need to understand chakras to do this meditation?Not at all! The guided visualization gently walks you through each energy center, so no prior knowledge is necessary. Just relax and follow along.2. How long is the meditation?The meditation is about 15 minutes—perfect for a quick morning reset or as part of a larger practice.3. What’s the significance of the roses and planetary energies?The roses represent the unfolding and clearing of each energy center, while the planetary energies bring deeper alignment and cosmic perspective. This combination connects you to both earthly and universal rhythms.4. Why is there no music?I chose to keep this meditation free of music so that you can fully focus on the guidance and your inner experience. The silence creates a space for your energy to harmonize naturally.5. Can I combine this meditation with other practices?Absolutely! This meditation is designed to stand alone but can also enhance other practices, such as breathwork, affirmations, or visualization exercises.Experience the MeditationReady to begin? Click below to experience the Rose and Planetary Alignment meditation. As you practice, I’d love to hear about your experience—feel free to share your thoughts in the comments or reply to this post!Thanks for reading 𝕋𝕙𝕖 ℝ𝕖𝕚𝕘𝕟𝕓𝕠𝕨 ℂ𝕠𝕕𝕖™! Subscribe for free to receive new posts and support my work. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit thereignbowcode.substack.com