Disordered Determination

In this episode I begin to explore the topic of feminine and masculine energy in relation to Human Design mechanics.  This is a topic that is often much more full of homoegnization than differentiation.  I do not believe that all men should present as a standard type of "masculine" or that all women should present as a standard type of "feminine". I believe different mechanics alter the way in which we are perceived as masculine or feminine by the other, but it has much more to do with the conditioned narrative that the other has attached to the words "masculine" or "feminine" and nothing to do with the actual quality of energy. A common example I reference is the Manifestor woman who inititates (a "masculine" quality) or the Projector man who waits to be invited (a "feminine" quality).  When Ra Uru Hu talks about the feminine and masculine energies, he refers to them as Yin and Yang. Just that subtle shift in language can help to discern the difference between "masculine" and "feminine" in their true expression versus their not-self performance. You can find more of me at  Insta - @samzagar YouTube - @samzagarhumandesign Website - www.samzagar.com

It's been an honest year for me and it's showing no signs of slowing down.  This episode has a lot of personal story sharing and in the spirit of truth and confrontation - I wasn't actually sure I was going to follow through with publishing it. I was a little nervous about what I had said. I gave myself time to process and let it all sink into my body and just waited for a clear no from my spleen and not my mind. I allowed all the nervousness about why I should avoid being honest in this way to come in and be felt. I started feeling like I needed to listen back to the episode to see if it was as scary, shameful, or embarrassing as my mind wanted me to believe, so I made a coffee the next morning and put my headphones on in bed and hit play. I'm glad I did. There's a reason I felt called to record this, and it's the same reason I'm going to publish it now - because it feels clean to tell the truth. It feels like washing my solar plexus. It feels incredibly empowering and the more I do it, the easier it gets. You can find me at -  Website - https://www.samzagar.com/ Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/samzagar/?hl=en Youtube - https://www.youtube.com/@SamZagarHumanDesign Pinterest - https://www.pinterest.ca/samzagar/ 

Kaitlin's back!  (and we're as vulnerable, edgy and open with our language as usual so be mindful of little listeners) Kaitlin Garratt is a 3/5 Pure MG with only individual circuitry. She has the channels of Inspiration, Perfected Form, and the Beat. Kaitlin also has a Pure Individual partner, who is a 5/1 Emoting Projector, and a QR 1/4 Reflector daughter. Join us again as we shoot the sh*t about our de-conditioning process. We cover a lot of Human Design topics, but what is more interesting is the way in which we interact with eachother. As the Projector, I ask a lot of questions, and they come through a strategic mind, which is great for Kaitlin as she responds from her sacral, and also enjoys me puling from her receptive mind.  This conversation has an emphasis on deconditioning our undefined centers but doesn't feel dry or technical in anyway. Since we're both third lines, you're going to hear a lot of what hasn't and doesn't work for us. I can't reccommend working with Kaitlin enough if you're looking for someone to empower you through a phase of intense growth in your life. You can find her at - https://www.instagram.com/kaitlinrewilding/ or https://yourewilding.com/   

While this episode stands alone, it makes an excellent follow up to the episode where Ean had me on his YouTube Channel, Dharma Science Radio. You can find that video here. Ean and I have a fantastic, free flowing conversation about living our designs. I have to acknowledge that one of the things I enjoyed most about this conversation is the level of HD with which we're able to speak at. I found it incredibly refreshing to have a conversation with no particular goal in mind. We're not selling you anything, we're just sharing our lived experiences.  Ean and I are both strong advocates for sourced based Human Design material, and we both care deeply about being able to live out our Human Design Experiments according to our own mechanics.  This chat is innocent, quirky, playful, considerate and encouraging.  You can also find Ean on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/dharma.science.radio/ or on Discord at https://discord.com/invite/C9JfMjbM4Z  

I'm thrilled to introduce you to Jess Gelvin, a 3/5 Pure MG.  Jess and I are a complimentary binary in that she is a Quad Right, and I am a Quad Left in our variable configurations. Thats a loose way of saying Jess absorbs information whereas I organize information. There is something very cool that Jess and I are able to demonstrate and that is the relationship between the Projector and Sacral Being where I ask and she responds, and then we add another layer to that of my leftness asking/pulling from her rightnesse. We jumped into this chat with no plan and no goal, other than to let our natural mechanics do what they do and see how it goes. I naturally prioritized asking Jess questions I was curious to know the answer to, especially if I felt that we could relate.  Topics that naturally came up where being neurodivergent, being parents, using cannabis, enjoying our outdoor home space, how we eat, medication, plants, and more I hope you love this episode as much as I do.  If you'd like to connect or work with Jess you can find her at - https://www.instagram.com/thequadrightway/   

This episode hits hard, and is NOT appropriate for kids. This episode is intimate, personal, vulnerable, and wildly empowering. It's my pleasure to introduce you to my client, my friend, and my rewilding teacher Kaitlin.  Kaitlin is a 3/5 Pure MG with only individual circuitry. She has the channels of Inspiration, Perfected Form, and the Beat. Kaitlin also has a Pure Individual partner, who is a 5/1 Emoting Projector, and a QR 1/4 Reflector daughter. I met Kaitlin in December of 2023 and we spent time together in person in April of this spring. When we were together Kaitlin recognized that I needed some empowering and she invited me to receive work from her which I eagerly accepted. What proceeded was an intense excavating of not-self blocks, a powerful mutation and a deep time of processing and embodying. When she was done with me, the first thing I could feel was that my voice was significantly stronger. It's because of that and her that I've made such incredible progress recently towards my signature. I hope you love this episode as much as I do. If you want more, I've got good news - Kaitlin will be back regularly. If you'd like to work with Kaitlin you can find her at - https://www.instagram.com/kaitlinrewilding/ or https://yourewilding.com/ 

Today I'm interviewing Nadia Scott, a 1/3 Sacral Generator Nadia is a Quad Left, with the channels of Rhythm and Curiosity.  I asked Nadia if she wanted to come on Anew Narrative because when I found her instagram, I was immediately attracted to her energy and soon figured out why. Nadia has been through a profound health journey and while some of it is gutwrenching, it does have a very satisfying ending. I hoped she would have a positive response to coming and sharing her story with us and thankfully she did! Because this episode is so focused on healing the body, I'd also like to acknowledge that Nadia is Direct Light Determination, Smell Cognition, and Narrow Valleys Environment. Tune in to hear how Nadia managed to reclaim her authority from the health industry and took her healing into her own skilled hands. If you want to meet Nadia - you can find her on instagram @nadiascott_living_by_design  

Anew Narrative is back and kicking off Season 3 with a new sound, a new vibe, and for this episide something else is new - I have two guests! Laura is a 2/4 DRLPLR Pure Sacral Generator with Indirect Light Determination.  Stevie is a 2/4 DRRPRR Pure Sacral Generator with Indirect Light Determination.  I loved how similar some of the definition was between Laura and Stevie and also how similar aspects of their lifestyle were as they are both parents, and both are in committed long term relationships. You can also get a good sense of how they're different - Laura has 6 defined centers, While Stevie only has 2. Laura has no Tribal circuitry, and Stevie has no Collective circuitry. Laura's mind is strategic while being Innocent(ly) motivated. Stevie's mind is receptive while being Hope(fully) motivated. Tune in to hear how they navigate daily life, parenting responsibilities, de-conditioning and much more! If you want to meet Laura - you can find her on instagram @indirect.photography, She is also my VA and the editor of this podcast Stevie however, does not want to be found, and how cool is that!

The conversation between 2/4 pure Manifesting Generator Olyveya Mazier and myself started when I sent her a DM on instagram asking her if I could run her bodygraph to see if she is a first color determination. Her instagram name at the time was @carnivoreballerina and she was tracking her health journey as she moved towards a VERY simple diet that is heavy in animal products. Olyveya has a defined spleen and a defined heart through the Channel of Surrender like I do, and we both digest animal products very well, especially ruminant animals. She had a yes for me running her chart and we discovered she is in fact a first color determination - Alternating!  We talk about detoxing, mold poisoning, skin issues, ballet, pain, working through discomfort, travelling, finding/hunting/ordering food, eliminating foods, her sacral response, recipes, and much more! You can find this episode on YouTube here. You can find Olyveya here - Youtube - @olyveya Instagram - @Olyveya LinkedIn - Olyveya Mazier If you're interested in exploring your Human Design with my guidance, I offer a variety of ways to do so - Website - www.samzagar.com Instagram - @samzagar YouTube - @samzagarhumandesign

Join 5/2 Emotional Manifestor Dave Myers and myself as we have an innocent and candid conversation. I ask Dave about his experiment, his feelings, his relationships, and his manifesting process among other intriguing topics. You can find Dave here - Youtube - @neutrinoradio7894 Instagram - @NeutrinoRadio If you're interedted in exploring your Human Design with my guidance, I offer a variety of ways to do so - Website - www.samzagar.com Instagram - @samzagar YouTube - @samzagarhumandesign