I'm The Problem, It's Me - An Honest Solo Episode

Tune in for a life update as I reflect on what's kept me a little more quiet these last two months.  You can find more of me at - Insta - @samzagar YouTube - @samzagarhumandesign Website - www.samzagar.com

Do you believe you have to choose between love and money? Is there an inner narrative in you that says you can't have both? There was for me. For years I've felt like I had to choose to be successful in either love OR money and this year I decided I wasn't going to accept that.  If you've heard episode 17 called "re-writing my money narrative" this is the follow up four years later. I talk about how I absolutely would not accept the belief that I had to choose between the two, and how I managed to prove that I could in fact have both. This month marks not only my most successful financial month to date, but also a milestone in my relationship. Curious how I did it? Tune in to find out. You can find more of me at - Insta - @samzagar YouTube - @samzagarhumandesign Website - www.samzagar.com

Today I'm interviewing Shyanna Pilch, a 6/2 Emotional Projector. I met Shyanne when she reached out to me after watching some of my YouTube videos and we were fast friends. I felt incredibly recognized and connected to her because she invited me to chat on a platform that used video and we both showed up with messy hair, no make up, kids interrupting and smoking weed. We were kindred spirits. Shyanne is a woman, wife, and mother who is outnumbered by energy types in her household. In this episode we explore our designs, motherhood, relationships, emotions, de-conditioning, nutrition, enema's, and more. Hear how Shy navigates her moods, conflict, and rest in an ever-changing cultural landscape. Shy has the Channel Of Emoting and she's a passionate, provocative, romantic, and sensitive creature. Tune in if you're keen to hear two new Projector besties recognize eachother while supporting, empowering, and sharing with eachother.  If you want to meet Shyanne - you can find her on instagram @sensiblyshy

Kaitlin's back!  (and we're as vulnerable, edgy and open with our language as usual so be mindful of little listeners) In this conversation we talk about the difference between being "eclipsed" and being "triggered" and where we can take radical, personal, responsibility for ourselves. Kaitlin Garratt is a 3/5 Pure MG with only individual circuitry. She has the channels of Inspiration, Perfected Form, and the Beat. Kaitlin also has a Pure Individual partner, who is a 5/1 Emoting Projector, and a QR 1/4 Reflector daughter. Join us again as we shoot the sh*t about our de-conditioning process. We cover a lot of Human Design topics, but what is more interesting is the way in which we interact with eachother. As the Projector, I ask a lot of questions, and they come through a strategic mind, which is great for Kaitlin as she responds from her sacral, and also enjoys me puling from her receptive mind.  I can't reccommend working with Kaitlin enough if you're looking for someone to empower you through a phase of intense growth in your life. You can find her at - https://www.instagram.com/kaitlinrewilding/ or https://yourewilding.com/ 

A lot of us are motivated by a four letter word that starts with 'L' and it's not Love. In this episode I explore the concept of being "lazy", the drive for perfectionism that's entirely unrealistic, the pushing of things that are truly artificial, and the clusterfu*k that is the not-self "dream life". If you're ready to release the pressure to do more, be more, have more, crush more, grind more, compete more - this is for you. If you recognize that you, and most others, are actually already doing enough, in fact you're likely doing more than enough, then this is definitely the episode for you. (And If you want to hear more about my life circa 2005, when I was obsessed with hipster movie rental stores and korean silent films, this episode will also entertain you) You can find more of me at  Insta - @samzagar YouTube - @samzagarhumandesign Website - www.samzagar.com

In this episode I begin to explore the topic of feminine and masculine energy in relation to Human Design mechanics.  This is a topic that is often much more full of homoegnization than differentiation.  I do not believe that all men should present as a standard type of "masculine" or that all women should present as a standard type of "feminine". I believe different mechanics alter the way in which we are perceived as masculine or feminine by the other, but it has much more to do with the conditioned narrative that the other has attached to the words "masculine" or "feminine" and nothing to do with the actual quality of energy. A common example I reference is the Manifestor woman who inititates (a "masculine" quality) or the Projector man who waits to be invited (a "feminine" quality).  When Ra Uru Hu talks about the feminine and masculine energies, he refers to them as Yin and Yang. Just that subtle shift in language can help to discern the difference between "masculine" and "feminine" in their true expression versus their not-self performance. You can find more of me at  Insta - @samzagar YouTube - @samzagarhumandesign Website - www.samzagar.com

It's been an honest year for me and it's showing no signs of slowing down.  This episode has a lot of personal story sharing and in the spirit of truth and confrontation - I wasn't actually sure I was going to follow through with publishing it. I was a little nervous about what I had said. I gave myself time to process and let it all sink into my body and just waited for a clear no from my spleen and not my mind. I allowed all the nervousness about why I should avoid being honest in this way to come in and be felt. I started feeling like I needed to listen back to the episode to see if it was as scary, shameful, or embarrassing as my mind wanted me to believe, so I made a coffee the next morning and put my headphones on in bed and hit play. I'm glad I did. There's a reason I felt called to record this, and it's the same reason I'm going to publish it now - because it feels clean to tell the truth. It feels like washing my solar plexus. It feels incredibly empowering and the more I do it, the easier it gets. You can find me at -  Website - https://www.samzagar.com/ Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/samzagar/?hl=en Youtube - https://www.youtube.com/@SamZagarHumanDesign Pinterest - https://www.pinterest.ca/samzagar/ 

Kaitlin's back!  (and we're as vulnerable, edgy and open with our language as usual so be mindful of little listeners) Kaitlin Garratt is a 3/5 Pure MG with only individual circuitry. She has the channels of Inspiration, Perfected Form, and the Beat. Kaitlin also has a Pure Individual partner, who is a 5/1 Emoting Projector, and a QR 1/4 Reflector daughter. Join us again as we shoot the sh*t about our de-conditioning process. We cover a lot of Human Design topics, but what is more interesting is the way in which we interact with eachother. As the Projector, I ask a lot of questions, and they come through a strategic mind, which is great for Kaitlin as she responds from her sacral, and also enjoys me puling from her receptive mind.  This conversation has an emphasis on deconditioning our undefined centers but doesn't feel dry or technical in anyway. Since we're both third lines, you're going to hear a lot of what hasn't and doesn't work for us. I can't reccommend working with Kaitlin enough if you're looking for someone to empower you through a phase of intense growth in your life. You can find her at - https://www.instagram.com/kaitlinrewilding/ or https://yourewilding.com/   

While this episode stands alone, it makes an excellent follow up to the episode where Ean had me on his YouTube Channel, Dharma Science Radio. You can find that video here. Ean and I have a fantastic, free flowing conversation about living our designs. I have to acknowledge that one of the things I enjoyed most about this conversation is the level of HD with which we're able to speak at. I found it incredibly refreshing to have a conversation with no particular goal in mind. We're not selling you anything, we're just sharing our lived experiences.  Ean and I are both strong advocates for sourced based Human Design material, and we both care deeply about being able to live out our Human Design Experiments according to our own mechanics.  This chat is innocent, quirky, playful, considerate and encouraging.  You can also find Ean on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/dharma.science.radio/ or on Discord at https://discord.com/invite/C9JfMjbM4Z  

I'm thrilled to introduce you to Jess Gelvin, a 3/5 Pure MG.  Jess and I are a complimentary binary in that she is a Quad Right, and I am a Quad Left in our variable configurations. Thats a loose way of saying Jess absorbs information whereas I organize information. There is something very cool that Jess and I are able to demonstrate and that is the relationship between the Projector and Sacral Being where I ask and she responds, and then we add another layer to that of my leftness asking/pulling from her rightnesse. We jumped into this chat with no plan and no goal, other than to let our natural mechanics do what they do and see how it goes. I naturally prioritized asking Jess questions I was curious to know the answer to, especially if I felt that we could relate.  Topics that naturally came up where being neurodivergent, being parents, using cannabis, enjoying our outdoor home space, how we eat, medication, plants, and more I hope you love this episode as much as I do.  If you'd like to connect or work with Jess you can find her at - https://www.instagram.com/thequadrightway/